Issues that I'm unhappy about:

1. Its bad enough tt u miss ur friends birthday gathering, its worse to even miss more than once. Whatever the reasons, it better be not work. work can work anytime, money can earn any time, friends bday n gathering only comes once in a year. They took off time n effort to come to ur birthday, it will be greatly appreciated with u to theirs. its not the present, its the presence. if u r gonna say stuff like "it does not mean that I'm not there that I don't care." ya la, whatever man, action always speaks louder than words.

2. My driving license - my driving license entitles me to be able to drive where n whenever I want. Not for people to think tt I drove, then I am suppose to drive them around or drive them directly to their doorstep. Its only out of the goodness of my heart that I dun mind tompang people and sometimes its on the way la. the thing that disturbs me is that People can be too dependent on me, expecting this, expecting tt. Do I look like an Ahmad to u? Dun come to me, I will come to u. Maybe I'm too sensitive..

3. I have been thinking and even before I even ask u, I know that ur decision is going to be lidat. Just that I dont expect it will be a confirm thing. I know u have other commitments that u have gave up for almost 2 yrs because of this. But how can u leave just lidat? like there is nth for u to stay. Is the reasons only about u? ever consider the rest? ever consider the one who bring all of us to a higher new level be disappointed? the future only left a damn pathetic sum of people to hold the fort, to lead/guides the young ones. hai.. since ur heart is no longer with us, there is no point staying on. Just dont affect the others.


I'm into PMS-ing mood n I know some of u read this will be offended or wadever shit la. I really dun wanna put all of this in blog, but rather keeping it to myself. BUt while i was driving today, i keep thinkin n thinkin abt it kinda affects my mood for the day, even waiting for janice for a bout 5 mins pisses me off.!!! 5 min may seems short but try it while standing n doing nth!!. I really dun wanna pretend tt nth happen la.. Feeling lousy, listening to micheal buble - Home as my comforting song. Btw, the 3rd point is written with discretion.. So dun go guessing. when time is right, i will talk to certain ppl abt it.. sianz la.. liying is feeling sensitive, thread with care!!

I nid chocs!!

i really have noob fac!! argh!!!!! think positive think positive.




Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

-micheal buble