The Loser in me says;" It sucks to know that after so much training and being there for MOST of the training, yet I'm still stagnant or not improving makes me feel fucking sian AT ALL and sort of demoralizing and disheartening."

The Winner in me says;" You know that you sucks, that's why the more u shd train and improve!! Your teammates need you!!" or will i even make it into the team???



sigh......

I cant make it this fri's training and I dunno how to open my mouth to tell captain or my teammates.. i need a vehicle badly...